It is Black Saturday as I write this. Yes, I’m back after having said goodbye to you all a while back. Thank you to everyone who left comments on that post, and who also told me elsewhere that my writing matters.
I did not (and still don’t) actively seek affirmation for this blog but somehow, God always finds a way of ‘pulling me back’ to blogging, by using other people to encourage me to do so. So… THANK YOU, dear readers (yes, even the ‘silent lurkers’ out there! ), for sticking around.
These past 12 days have flown by in a blurred flurry and, sadly, I don’t think I was able to accomplish what I meant to when I wrote my ‘goodbye of sorts’ post, i.e. to “try to make the most of what’s left of the Lenten season — to give more time to God and my family, especially the kids.”
Sad but true.
It’s been a different Holy Week for us this year — with the kids spending most of it with my parents (and me trying to catch up on deadlines.) We will be reunited again later though, and will be spending Easter Sunday at the Grand Easter Feast at the SM MOA Arena.
My attempt to do all the things I had planned for Lent and Holy Week was, sadly, a ‘fail’ too. I feel like I have failed God and my kids actually. Sometimes I actually feel like I’m going through a ‘dark night of the soul‘ of sorts.
On the outside (and on this blog), it may seem like I’ve ‘got it all together’ but I don’t. And that pains me, saddens me, tortures me. Sometimes, I feel like such a hypocrite actually, which is probably why I considered stopping blogging altogether. How can I encourage and/or inspire others to be ‘truly rich’ in what matters most when I myself am still not entirely there yet?
But then I remember what happened… in the still of the night… the dark ‘night’ that seemed to envelop the world over 2,000 years ago after Jesus — our Lord, our King, our Savior — was crucified and died, and then laid in the tomb…
In the still of the night… God was working.
In the still of my night… God is working.
In the still of your night… God is working too.
And that, my friends, is why I’m continuing this journey. This blog. This ‘ministry’ of sorts through my writing and sharing of my life.
Just as the glory of Christ’s Resurrection brought light, true light, into the world, dispelling all the darkness of the night, so shall it, so shall He — Jesus Himself — dispel all the darkness in my soul and in my life. I am a work in progress and so are you. This journey, our journey (because you have chosen to ‘stick around’) is just beginning. Praise God for that!
Now, before I go, let me invite you to do two things:
1. Join us at the Grand Easter Feast tomorrow, Easter Sunday! I’ll be the one in a blue and white dress, with a baby in a sling and 2 kids at my side. (Anthony will be ‘running around’ as he’s part of the team leading the event so I might be alone for the most part!) If you are able to go and you see me, please do say ‘Hi!’
2. Leave a comment and let me know what YOU want from this space. What kind of posts do you want to read? Do you want more posts on how to enrich your faith? Your family life? Your self? Or even your finances? (I’m thinking of ‘renovating’ for a higher purpose, and would love to read your thoughts!) If you don’t want to leave a comment, that’s OK. But please do if you can.
Thank you again for not going anywhere while I took a ‘leave’ of sorts! Please do consider my invitation above, OK? Oh, and watch out for the next 50 Days of Amazing Grace series — starting tomorrow! God bless you!
[Golgotha photo credits to bela_kiefer / FreeDigitalPhotos.net]